Post script: False Spring
for Elizabeth Smart
William Burroughs is dying.
The sun creeps up behind a gray cap of
cloud like approaching the scene of a crime.
The calendar on the cigarette pack says Friday
April 11/1986. The clock, 6:A.M. Sometimes
everything is so appropriate you can hardly
stand it.
Jean Genet is dying.
I warned several people. False spring is
a danger in these climates. The snow is cut
into parking lots and roof tops like
hieroglyphs. A bird begins singing. It sounds
like a music box playing in ruins, in spite
of itself.
Samuel Beckett is dying.
and tomorrow or the day after there will be a
run on his books like to make the booksellers
beam with disaster. Who sounds more
convinced, the bird singing or me and my
warnings? You remember how it was a few
years ago when it looked like anything could
happen. False spring is a danger in these
climates.
Elizabeth Smart is dead.
I have these memories. First I read my
poems then later she reads hers. It was like
a marriage ceremony that takes fifty years to
say I do. I am dying to say it. It is a crappy
day with snow on the ground anyway.
At the time of this writing
everything is dying. The buds broke in
the premature sun no matter my warning.
No matter my warning everything is dying.
When they finally put the microphone in her
face it was too late and she left us. I heard
she left us, in spite of my warning and I sat
down and wept.